Motivation after Mom
At the beginning of 2010, I was 238 pounds. My mom was about to have gastric bypass surgery and I was going to be turning 30 in a few months. I wanted, needed to make a change. I wanted to show my mom that I could lose the weight on my own before I got to a point where I would have to have weight loss surgery like her. So I started doing Jillian Michaels videos 5-6 days a week. My goal was to get under 200 lbs and I succeeded within 9 months. I proceeded to add the couch to 5k running program to my routine. In October 2011 I completed my first 5k. I went on to do several more and eventually train for and complete 2 10K races. Working out was a part of my life. Monday through Friday I’d be up by 5am to go for a run, do a Jillian video, or go to the gym when we had a gym membership. Then I took a job that sucked the life out of me and I got out of the workout habit.
Adding to my workout woes, on September 18, 2018 my mom died by suicide, causing a spiral in my life. Deep in grief, I didn’t have the energy or desire to work out, so getting back into a routine certainly wasn’t on my radar. I was doing the bare minimum just to survive. I haven’t weighed myself, but I know I’ve put on weight. I don’t feel good about myself. My body feels the need to get moving again. I want to go back to modeling a healthier lifestyle for my kids. I need the exercise to help me feel better about myself, both mentally and physically, to help me continue to work through the grief that I’ll carry with me for the rest of my life.
Exercise has helped me work through some serious stress and emotions, and now I feel like I need it more than ever. A Peloton in the house would be such a blessing. It would allow me, my husband and my kids a chance to help get things back on track health-wise, especially during the long ND winters when it’s tough to get out and be active. Having something like a Peloton in the house to allow us to get our sweat on would be a push in the right direction.